Friday, January 01, 2010

My, What Changes.


It has been a little over a year since Bob died. The father of my children. My husband of 17 years.

I still grieve. The grief changes, I am finding out, but it's there nonetheless.

It has been a wild roller coaster ride over the last 3 years.

I think 2010 promises to bring many changes to my life, at least in my own mind, because the children and I have experienced nothing BUT change on the outside. My mind, however, seems to have been placed on cruise control during this time. This holiday season has me feeling that my life with Bob is finally coming to a close.

Those who witness my life may think it odd that I say that, as I quickly "wrapped up" things in the household; my life as it has manifested (new boyfriend, starting school, etc.). But in my MIND, I was still half expecting Bob to walk through the front door as if he was coming home from a long vacation.

I miss him.

I am happy with my life as it is.

I am looking forward to continuing this good life.